Step Up Or Step Out
Well it’s been awhile since I
did an update so…er…here’s an update. While being creative is a blessing it can
also be an absolute mother of all nightmares too and I’ve been rolling around
in said nightmare longer than I care to roll, I dont care much for excuses, so I guess I’ve reached a
crossroads where it’s time to change things up. If you’re not happy with things
as they are then it’s only going to change if you change them, because sure
ain’t nobody else going to do it for you.
When I started out it was
never my intention to be a solo artist, the dream & focus was always to front
a band, and there began the problem, trying to find like-minded people, with
the same focus, passion and commitment. It seemed band members could talk the
talk, but when it came to action, most of them couldn’t even spell it.
Either do something properly
or don’t do it at all surely?
I tried out about five or six
bands in the early days but it was ridiculous, If one band member got a cold the
rest of the band thought it was a green light not to turn up for rehearsals,
the fact that you only need two people to
have a rehearsal seemed lost on them. When it comes to people supposedly aiming for their goals a disorganised mind-set never
fails to surprise me.
Hence to say I got so fed up
having to run around chasing guys all the time….., and not even in a fun way lol!.
Instead of being able to focus on what I needed to do, I was having to be behind
everyone else wiping asses. Someone wants to make something of themselves or
they don’t, it’s cool, it’s a choice thing, but I don’t expect to have to keep
nagging, I’m not anyones mother.
So I went solo, in theory it
should’ve been easier, but I’m
still forever having to cajole,
nag, chase and bang my head on the
laptop keyboard…repeatedly to get anything done.
I have loads of decisions to
make right now, all scary, but hey feel the fear & do it anyway as they say. If I end up going completely D.I.Y it will mean
having to learn an awful lot, and for someone not so sharp on the academic
front it could be biting off more than I can chew. Also when the TEARS video
materialises and I sort out the release, it will probably be the first proper and last proper one I make due to the amount of work and stress involved in trying to make it happen.
The bottom line is there’s only one of me and there’s too much time spent on crap
that takes me away from creating music which is all I ever really wanted to do.
When you’re an indie artist rolling solo that’s never going to happen, but I
want to change things up so that hopefully I will be able to do more of the good
stuff.
Although all tracks have been
recorded and just coming to the end of mixing, I’m undecided if I’ve outgrown some of them now, that’s what
happens with time, we grow and move on, in which case I’ll just release an EP
instead of the planned album? And then
it’s where to go after that? What to do?
I believe in god, without
religion, so I’m sure I’ll end up wherever I’m meant to end up in the end, but
at the moment I feel like a line from
“Is It My Time PtII”
“Round and around like a washing machine carrying a toxic load I
couldn’t get clean”
Everythings feeling unsettled
right now but as I make the decisions you’’ll be the first to know. In the
mean-time Thanks as always for the luv & Support & patience, You’re awesome,
Stay Blessed
MC xxx
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